goatsongs: neutral (explain explain)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
Just checking up on you, seeing how you're handling things.

[Not surprised. Chuuya wouldn't expect him to be.]
goatsongs: smile (now that I think about it)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
Mhm.

[He was not.]

Did you talk to her before?
goatsongs: smile (cold-hearted)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
Probably.

[Chuuya doesn't like it, but that's the logic someone would use.]

I asked and Patience said that if she wanted to forget what dying feels like, the gods could do that for her. So that's something. I guess.
goatsongs: smile (solemn)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't thought about it. ...I don't remember dying the first time, so points for brain disease I guess, but I know plenty of people who remember theirs.

[Most of them died of sickness in their beds, and even that's traumatic enough. He only knows one author who died violently at someone else's hands, and while he and Takiji aren't close...

The effects of those memories have lasted much longer than the wounds themselves.]
goatsongs: smile (blink)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
I wasn't asking for myself anyway.

[He's already screwed up. One more traumatic memory won't do much.]
goatsongs: smile (this book dive sucks)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
You're too young to experience death. [If Ray interrupts he'll just talk over him.] Even if it's temporary, even if you're already surrounded by it at home, even if all the adults you know are douchewads, whatever excuses you're about to give me I don't care. You shouldn't have to know what it feels like to die.
goatsongs: upset (sweat)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
I know that!

[That came out a little more upset than Chuuya meant it to. Um. He swallows and tries again.]

Just because things happen doesn't mean they should.
goatsongs: smile (darkened eyes)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
...Don't tell me things I already know.

[Chuuya's voice is shaking.]

Of course children die. Here. At home. Everywhere. I know that. 'Should' won't protect them. Adults are supposed to protect them.
goatsongs: smile (just so tired)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not. ...Even someone who doesn't especially praise love will love their child.
goatsongs: upset (sweat)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[good job ray.]

...yes. He did.
goatsongs: upset (sulking intensifies)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
I fussed over kids before I even had one. And most people wouldn't want kids to be killed.

[It's the drinking that most directly comes from his loss.]
goatsongs: smile (darkened eyes)

[personal profile] goatsongs 2019-02-23 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
[...

Chuuya turns around and leaves to go get very, very drunk.]

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