catch-all for madoka.

[selfimmolates]

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[frilly]

Not yet, but I will.

[ She pauses to munch a little. After swallowing, she blurts out: ]

Sometimes I think about how easy it would be to do more in this contest, since everyone thinks of me like I wouldn't. It makes me feel really guilty just imagining it.

[selfimmolates]

[... well, okay. that's all?]

Don't be. That's a normal thing to think.

[the awkward part now is that he has no idea if madoka knows he basically drugged her.]

[frilly]

[ she does not. her shoulders droop. ]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to complain like that.

[ she really didn't mean to! what a mystery!! ]

[selfimmolates]

[hmm. a part of ray wants to, like. apologize. but he's also not sure if it's a great idea to let madoka know?]

Everyone needs to vent once in a while.

[frilly]

That's true... But I shouldn't put that on you.

S-so, um... Even trade - is there anything you need to vent about?

[ she sounds like she already knows how silly that suggestion is but okay ]

[selfimmolates]

I don't really mind.

[she wouldn't be the first??]

Nope.

[frilly]

Ehh...

[ so cold ]

[selfimmolates]

I'm fine. Worry more about people like Senri or Takaomi.

[frilly]

I worry about them a lot.

[selfimmolates]

And this weekend has just made that worse, right?

[frilly]

Yeah... They keep getting into trouble. And they don't tell me anything, so I can't help.

B-but, um, it seems like they have lots of other friends looking out for them too, so... That's good.

[selfimmolates]

... Does it hurt?

[frilly]

No! No, of course not!

[ . . . ]

[selfimmolates]

[he stares like he doesn't believe that.]

[frilly]

I want my friends to have friends...! And, you know, everyone is allowed to have secrets, there's nothing wrong with that!

[selfimmolates]

So you're saying it doesn't sting that they won't rely on you?

[frilly]

... Maybe.

But they're not - they don't have to. No one has done anything wrong.

[selfimmolates]

They don't have to, no. Still... have you ever told them about how you feel?

[frilly]

. . .

[selfimmolates]

... Do you ever talk about your feelings?

[asks ray, who never talks about his feelings, but.]

[frilly]

I talk about my feelings all the time...!

[selfimmolates]

Non-mushy feelings.

[frilly]

I think this is a hard enough time without them having to worry about something like that.

[selfimmolates]

They're going through a rough time, and that's exactly why they need to learn to depend on others.

[frilly]

[ that just makes her feel bad again because what if it's her own fault that they aren't depending on her... so she just defaults to something positive to try and end that track of conversation. ]

... Everything is going to be okay.